Bethany 101

So, in the past week or two I have been VERY aware of myself and have learned SO much about ME. Here are some of the things that stood out to my about myself the most in the past couple weeks...

1. The REAL reason I love to sleep is not because I reengerize or because I'm tired, but because I LOVE to dream. It's so exciting wondering what I'll dream about next, and I really NEVER know, because dreams are so random!


2. If something bothers me that someone does, I don't hold it in. If it's a complete stranger I won't confront them, maybe if I'm in the confines of my car and they are in theirs I will, but generally I just confront them in my head, but I don't ignore it and try to "deal" with it. If it's someone I know, I will lovingly and calmly tell them what they have done to annoy me and how they can prevent from doing it in the future.


3. I go through extremes of self-esteem and how I see myself. One day I'll be driving around in my baby, listening to my favorite music with my aviator glasses and my purple fohawked hair and I will think to myself: I am soooo cool. Whoever doesn't know me is missing out. The next day, I'll be wondering why this or that person was willing to spend so much time with me or go out of their way to do something nice for me, because I feel like I'm not good enough, or don't deserve it.


4. I love collecting DVDs. I just bought nine new ones. My problem, though, is that I'll see a whole bunch of DVDs for only 7 or 9 dollars and I'll think "hey! that's cheap!" but then I end up buying 5 or 6 of them and it really adds up...


5. I love looking at and handling electronics, car parts or accessories, and tools. Recently, I have decided to start learning about my own car and doing the work on it myself, because I'm tired of auto shops taking advantage of my ignorance and making me pay through the nose for a job I could easily do myself for less than 5 bucks, if I only knew how. I LOVE going to places like Auto Zone and just looking. I could look at that stuff for hours! The same with Radio Shack. I also just bought a tool box and wrench set, which I am VERY excited about!



6. I'm becoming more like my mother everyday. Sometimes this is scary, because she is becoming more like my Grandpa everyday...(just kidding Grandpa, you have plenty of characteristics that I can only wish I had...your generosity and words of wisdom are only the tip of the iceberg)



7. The most important thing I've learned in this short period of only a couple weeks is that I have the power to choose happiness for myself. I have been in a bad funk for the past couple months and I was reluctant to change, but when I DID decide to change, all it took was for me to say to myself "Just be happy!" Hopefully I'll be able to continue using that strategy for the rest of my life.